[Maybe I could be an Eventually]

Maybe I could be an Eventually
and live up to all of my procrastinations
so that I'm reliable in some respect.

Maybe I'm a not-know,
trying on for size your yesyesyeses or nos and
finding assurance and safety unassuring and unsafe (unsafely).

If any is a euphemism for choice,
count me in as anyone, anywhere, anyhow,
surviving out of and off of anything I can d.i.y.

And if I can live on and propose any anys,
they'd be a handful of unsures, a pride of
idon'knows, a tattle of hmmms.

Camus imbued absurdity in the life of a
million Strangers sold, and I couldn't count
on a more satisfying quietude of apathy.

Now I create divisiondistortion, within the harmony
we float through. So while you're looking at your
watch, I'm trying to avoid planning my next move.

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*Because Justine's right, these notes are only for the truly oblivious. But I can't delete them after having experienced the thrill of notes from the likes of T. S. Eliot's "The Wasteland," or most nearly everything from David Foster Wallace.*

* An abbreviation for the contemporary anarchistic creed of "Do it Yourself," the belief that we should live our lives relying solely on ourselves for most of life's predicaments in order to make us more responsible and stronger in character, mind, and body.
**Albert Camus (pronounced Ahl-bear Cam-oo) wrote The Stranger during the Existentialist movement, and it has since been considered one of the crowning achievements in narratively explicating many of the philosophies of Existentialists: the absurdity of life, individuality, non-conformity, hedonism, exploring the significance of tangibles, etc. The protagonist is defined by his apathy towards social norms, living for himself in passive means and ignoring the consequences of his actions.
***Modest Mouse is a terrific band whose single "Float on," is primarily about not getting too heated over lukewarm predicaments in life, but here I enrich the phrasing by emphasizing the passivity (in life and in its multitude of moments of decision) inherant therein.